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    Thursday, January 11th, 2007
    2:09 pm
    OMG seriously I LOVE TELEVISION.

    That is all.
    Saturday, December 30th, 2006
    12:41 am
    Oh my gosh oh my gosh Jason Robert Brown is doing a new musical and I'm reeeeeally tempted to drive to L.A. to see it. Anybody down?
    Sunday, December 10th, 2006
    1:15 pm
    Ah, graduation.
    I have turned in the written part of my thesis. Tomorrow, I give my lecture recital. Tonight, my suitemates and I are preparing a festive holiday dinner. Life is good.
    Friday, December 1st, 2006
    11:11 pm
    Um, I have an old car stereo. It has been living on the floor of my Honda for well over a year. The radio works, but the tape deck is broken. What the heck do I do with it? Throw it in the trash? Seems like a waste.
    Tuesday, November 7th, 2006
    7:41 pm
    Oregon
    Tell me about Portland. What d'yall know about Portland? I might go study massage in Portland.
    Sunday, November 5th, 2006
    3:29 pm
    What if I'm really supposed to move to a forest and live in a tree?
    Monday, October 16th, 2006
    7:12 pm
    words, words, words.
    I think "shooting yourself in the foot" is a fabulous metaphor. I mean, think about it. You do it to yourself, it was totally avoidable, it leaves you limping around, and it takes time and effort to heal.
    Friday, October 13th, 2006
    6:47 pm
    a cat that looked like Shadow
    I ran across a lonely cat today. He mewed for quite some time. When I had to leave, I hope he understood that it wasn't because I didn't care about him.
    Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
    6:37 pm
    If anyone asks...
    1) I am now certified as a massage therapist.

    2) My senior lecture-recital will take place Monday, December 12th at 8pm. This'll be a big deal; it's a milestone in my life as a performer. Recently, (in large part due to the acting school I found this summer), I have really been finding my place as a singer and an actress. This recital is my first chance to share my commitment with an audience.
    Saturday, August 26th, 2006
    7:31 pm
    Oh. My. Universe.
    A HUGE, GIGANTIC, BLESSED three weeks of my life's journey just came to a close. Thank you to my classmates at Body Therapy Center in Palo Alto.

    Clearly, the thing to do is post these lyrics.

    TEMPORARY
    by John Bucchino

    Honey come here
    I have something to tell you
    It won't make things perfect
    And it may not make sense
    But someday you'll see it, as clear as my smile
    Do you know the word "temporary"?
    It means "only for a little while."

    And everything is temporary
    A friend moves, a tooth aches
    A pet dies, a toy breaks
    The detours a life takes
    Temporary

    Everything is temporary
    A storm clears, a tear dries
    A wing heals, a bird flies
    The trust lighting your eyes
    Temporary

    I know you want things to stay the same
    I know it's hard to watch a childhood
    Going up in smoke
    It's hard for me to watch a child
    Who's growing up
    And choke back all the warnings
    I could scream
    To protect you from the things
    That aren't as solid as they seem
    But then, I'm...only...temporary.

    Everything is temporary
    A child leaves, a heart breaks
    A love dies, a world shakes
    The difference one life makes
    Temporary

    The trick is:
    Hold it now as tightly as you can
    Whether it's your favorite toy
    Or a sad little boy who's trying hard
    To be a brave little man
    Hold it tighter 'cause you know
    You'll have to let it go

    If you learn this, though
    You won't feel so sad:
    A playmate, a tearstain
    A Christmas, a dad
    The best times
    The worst pain
    All: temporary.
    Saturday, August 12th, 2006
    10:19 pm
    Ahhhh, quoted IM convos.
    ME: I've never been of the "don't take it so seriously" elk.
    ME: (ilk? elk?)
    ME: It must be ilk.
    ME: although elk's much funnier.
    ME: You know, that don't take it so seriously breed of elk?
    ME: wow, I crack myself up.
    Monday, July 3rd, 2006
    11:30 pm
    Um, so...
    Iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii broke my toe. But also, acting class kicks booty. And I like my apartment. And tomorrow is the 4th. So la! (ti...do...whatev.)
    Monday, May 29th, 2006
    1:54 am
    I found another television show
    "Oh honey, don't get depressed tonight, we're having seafood." ~Izzy, in "Huff"
    Saturday, May 13th, 2006
    3:26 am
    This matters:
    Sometimes, it's better to be angry.
    Monday, April 10th, 2006
    2:34 am
    Just thought I'd say hi.
    Soooo...I finished my taxes today (yay me! I'm so cool!), and in so doing discovered that last year, I calculated my taxes incorrectly. I literally overpaid by one hundred dollars. ONE HUNDRED DOLLARS. (...it's not quite as flaky as it sounds; half that's money I paid them and half that's money it turns out that they owed me. But, uh, nonetheless it qualifies as flaky. =P) Yeahhh...so I'll be seeing what I can do 'bout that.

    Livejournal, man. Journals in general. It's quite a world we've got, here.
    Thursday, March 23rd, 2006
    4:10 pm
    is it always better to have intimate conversations in person?
    So, my friend mentioned that she doesn't do intimate conversations over e-mail. If she's gonna have a Talk, she's gonna do it in person. Which makes a lot of sense and seems lovely, but also, I was thinking...sometimes, isn't writing the better medium? I mean, like take LJ. Or IM. Don't you sometimes say stuff that you wish you could say in person but can't? Because ok, if you're in person, and you get all intimate on someone, you might make them uncomfortable. But if you do it in writing, they can easily distance themselves, you know? It can be a good way of saying some stuff you want to say without causing quite as uncomfortable a situation.

    I mean, I'm not saying you can say EVERYTHING in writing. I'm not saying you should use writing to be inappropriately intimate. I'm just saying, maybe you can do some stuff with writing that you can't do with verbal words. Whaddya think?
    Sunday, March 5th, 2006
    2:51 am
    Ohhhhhhh.
    So, this past week, I picked fights with three of my friends.

    Well. It's less that I picked fights, and more that I finally expressed some stuff that I'd never felt able to say. And then they answered. And then I expressed some more. And then they answered. And then...you get the idea. All three of the conversations ended with me saying "Ok, we can stop now," just because I knew they were getting increasingly annoyed/uncomfortable/I-dunno-what, but whatever it was, it wasn't uber-positive.

    And after all three, I felt like, "Wait...what the fuck just happened? What did I just do? And why did I do it? Was it horrible? Did I ruin something? Should I have shut up?"

    Turns out the answer is, "Well, yes and no."

    I realized some stuff.

    I am a person who wants to talk things through Until We Fix Them. In other words, resolving EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE is so important to me that I am willing to talk and talk and talk, no matter how uncomfortable it may be. I have faith that we will find a solution if we just keep working it through. I don't do well with unresolved issues.

    This is problematic for a couple of reasons. Number one, not everyone wants to talk everything to death. Number two, I am Highly Sensitive and Emotional (tm). So...I think I sense and am unhappy with way more than most people will ever sense or be unhappy with. And to me, it's like...I just CAN'T let go of these things, because I have this idea that if we can work through them, we will be so much closer and more intimate than we ever thought possible. And I want that. And when I DO try to let go of these things, to avoid bringing them up...they don't just go away. They make me feel distant. And I can't bridge the gap without talking.

    Now. I understand that different friendships have different levels of intimacy. I don't try to hash out EVERYTHING with EVERYONE. But...there are some people with whom I *do* want to hash out everything. And that's when it's a problem. For both of us.

    I need to figure out how to respect their needs without negating mine. I can't expect them to be happy to hash through everything; I can't expect it to work like that. But I ALSO can't ignore the fact that, well, I *do* need to make with the hashing.

    So.

    I think from now on, I should begin those types of conversations with, "Hey, so this is how I work...it might be totally ridiculous for you...but can we try it for a little bit?" And then when it gets to a certain point (and LORD do I need to get better at gaging that point...), I need to be OK saying, "Wow, well I'm not totally done hashing, but I feel like this is a good stopping point and we should let it go for now. How about you?"

    Compromise, compromise, compromise. I think I have a lot to learn.
    Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
    9:42 pm
    Reasonable and logical aren't the same thing.

    Also, FYI, I no longer plan to live in L.A. I realized that, well, I don't wanna.

    I'm gonna be in San Francisco this summer. I want to see if it might be the place for me.
    Friday, February 17th, 2006
    3:07 pm
    Three clarifications
    1) I meant the fact that they're interracial can't be the point.
    2) I also should have said white/non-white couples.
    3) They have to be films, not TV.
    4) Me and You and Everyone We Know's already on my list.

    Thaaaaank you. (I'm looking for films for my film project. This isn't utterly random. =P)
    11:11 am
    interracial couples in film
    Hey...I'm trying to think of films that portray interracial couples without making the relationship the central point of the film (i.e. Save the Last Dance and Crazy/Beautiful don't count.) Any ideas?
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